I'm trying new things and approaches. I'm scared. I haven't done some of this stuff before.
I shouldn't be so vague.
I have a day job. It is okay for a day job.
But it isn't what I want to do for the next couple of years. Well, I could but my spirit is calling me to pay attention to what it wants. I have ignored that spirit for too long.
I can't do that. Nothing wrong with it if that is your choice. I just can't.
With libraries closing my time spent learning to be a library technician/paraprofessional has not exactly borne employment fruit.
Now I do I feel I have gotten a great return on my investment, no complaints. I have foundation skills on how to find information and a whole bunch of information resources. I have connections with really cool people.
Everything that I learned in my classes has helped me be a better writer. Not a grammarian, just the writing part.
I just can't get a library job that will financially support me because we in this nation have hostility towards education and librarianship. No one wants to pay for it or anything else to support the benefit of their communities.
Dumb ass clucks.
Yet, if I tried to save enough for a librarian degree I would still in an employment quandary after graduation.
I was faced with looking for another career option. Again.
So, what am I gonna do?
That is a good question.
For a while I just numbed out and focused on the day job; the day job that I had intended on leaving. I had to find a way to make peace with that and it took a lot of time. Making peace with my anger that the world did not turn the way that I expected.
It never does. Stupid world.
I needed to look at what I do naturally and what I like to do. I see a rise in the entrepreneurial educators or resource bloggers/educators. I am noticing that there are huge chasms of information/education that are not being service, documented or even discussed outside of academia and I not sure even there because they don't seem to have focused on changes in their marketplace.
What I am seeing doesn't have a proper name yet. Or I don't know it.
I see opportunities in the shadows. This is a very good thing. Being able to see opportunities instead of the shadows. The suckers co-exist with each other and it takes a shift in perspective to move from one to another.
So for this year or however long it takes I'm going to be taking real world and on-line classes exploring how to create instructional and educational media. I will be traveling to places I've never been. I'm laying cash money on the line as a down payment on my commitment to go foward.
I am being open to the possibility that once I try this path I might find that is not what I though it to be. It might not be a good fit. That is okay. So long as I am in motion. So long as I am willing to try.
Once more into the breach.