There are times when you have to jump off the grid. There are other times when you have to pretend to be "normal". Sometimes you have to do both at the same times.
I got a hair cut. I wanted a hair cut but I said the wrong blade number and when I looked up almost all of my hair was gone. It was a change. I was almost bald.
I was shocked but I liked it. Other people however had strange reactions. Some laughed. One shrieked. I can't count how many people said that I had "gone Brittney" And there were others who would not come near me.
Some asked if I was alright. Others asked if I was honoring a bet.
I was no longer safe.
It was a great week of lessons, about how hair has social meaning and association with gender, femininity and the code for "being safe". It got me to thinking about women who have no choice about hair loss, due to cancer, illness or other reasons. I thought about all the hair commercials and hair products I have at home.
I thought about sitting in a chair outside of a doctor's office waiting to hear how my life would or would not change. The women who fought and are here and the ones that died.
I thought about laughter as a cure for being unsure but taking a step. Breathe, move forward. So this is my attempt to speak for those that might be uncomfortable at first with no hair.
For those that have tears coming from true pain I wanted to share something profoundly silly. Losing hair is ok. There are far worse things in life. I'm telling you after the first shower or a shot of warm air over your dome it is a wonderful sensation.
My hair grows back really fast so the next time you see me I won't look like this. So I present to you my one and only music video, Headbone Blues. The music is from musician Ralph Woodin and the name of the track is Bent Sling Blues from the Internet Archive.