Maybe I shouldn't be looking. Maybe I should. So much to do and yet not really.
Damn it to hell.
I have un-articulated hurt and pain and I have to find a way for it to come out. Making something would help but I have to figure out what and how.
So I watch videos from creative people and go, "Hmm, maybe I should go by some toilet paper or soap powder."
"Maybe I should hunker down and write something brilliant that would cause people to go "Ah, see that is what I'm talking about, clarity of vision."
No, I shouldn't On account I never have. Not intentionally.
I'll be fine. I just have to choose between buying toilet paper and being brilliant.
This might take a while.